Accountability

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Happy New Year! In the past, I haven’t paid too much attention to a new year starting, but this year something feels different. I feel hopeful, positive and excited. The past three years have been challenging, to say to least – my father being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s (something I’ve kept private), becoming a mother, buying a house, renovating our house, and my father passing away less than two years after my sister passed away – all while my business was growing at rapid speed. I’ve had extreme highs and extreme lows during this time and it took me 2 years to understand, acknowledge and appreciate the lessons I’ve learned during this time. I’ve had an internal fight about sharing too much of my personal life on this blog… which is probably why you notice a huge gap between the most recent posts. Why am I hesitating to share that I’ve lost a family member? Will my clients think I’m weak? Will they think I’m incapable to handle their large projects? If I blog too much, will clients think I’m not spending enough time working on their projects?   Taking time off between the holidays helped me clear my head and reminded me it’s quite the opposite – my grief shifted my entire life and made me stronger. It made me think differently and has strengthened my business because I’m more focused than I ever was.  On top of that, I am entering the new year with a newly renovated home office, new organized file system, and an accountant to help me with my taxes and book keeping. These were all huge goals for 2016 and I feel so good to have accomplished this.

Last year I wrote out a list of yearly goals and put it up on a pinup board so I’d have to see it every day. This year I’m sharing it here so I can be held accountable. :)

PERSONAL
Be mindful. Taking time off this past week made me realize how calm I am when I’m not on my phone and am living in the moment. I’m learning to meditate which has been really helpful, but also challenging for someone like me, who is constantly planning or thinking about what will happen next. I’ve been bringing my mind back to what’s happening in the moment: the way my cat feels snuggling me or the way their loud purr sounds, the way Cole’s small, soft hand reaches for mine to walk down the stairs, or listening to Ryan make Cole laugh. Little things add up to big things that change our lives, and I want to be mindful to experience them.

Have more family adventures.  We recently went to the Liberty Science Center and were there for 5 hours. Time flew by because we were having so much fun not having anywhere else to be. This past year, we spent a lot of our weekends doing home renovation projects. Looking back, we realize how much time it took from us focusing on family and exploring. Cole is almost three, so he’s becoming a typical little boy looking for adventure. I want to spend more time providing experiences, rather than holing up at home on a house project that really doesn’t matter in the long run.

Be more organized with meal planning. This is a typical new years resolution, but it goes hand in hand with us wanting to eat healthier. Our diets are pretty horrible right now, and Cole is THE pickiest toddler. I want to have a consistent schedule to go food shopping so I can prepare healthier meals to nourish my family.

Date nights. This one is pretty self explanitory. :) We need to focus more on our marriage because life has shifted so much since we’ve had Cole. We need to spend more time together and talk about things other than potty training or stresses of our jobs.

Care for my body. In addition to eating cleaner, I need to listen to my body and care for it. Seeing my dad’s health decline so quickly scared me and reminded me that I have control over my own health. I’m not saying that his Alzheimer’s was a result of his decisions, but I need to do what I can to take care of myself and pay attention to what I eat, what products I use, and what medicines I take.

Practice yoga. I’d love to be considered a yogi but right now I’m just an unsteady woman pretending I’m good, in hopes that I’m fooling everyone in the classes I take. :) I love my local studio and the community it provides and I intend to continue going more frequently for my body and mind.

Learn a new skill. Last year I took a pottery class and loved learning something new. This year I want to learn to knit, in addition to becoming a yogi. (See above. :)

PROFESSIONAL
Blog more. I’ve struggled a lot with what to post/share because I enjoy writing about personal things happening in my life. I know this business is my “brand”, but aren’t I my brand, too? I have a lot of ideas saved in my “drafts” folder but haven’t posted because I’ve been so busy with life and work. I also hesitate to write during a work day because I often feel guilty for writing instead of  doing my “normal” work. For example, today I had 564 emails when I woke up and now I still have 36. And I feel guilty because should I be answering those emails instead of blogging… Even though blogging is part of my work and my business, too. I want to rid my like of guilt, too. Add that to the list! :) I read this book recently and loved it and found it so relatable. So many creatives deal with similar struggles because our days aren’t normal, and each day is different, but yet somehow I still sometimes feel guilty for not always being behind a computer.

Less clients, but bigger projects. I love my clients, and am beyond grateful for them. I’ve found that having less clients and bigger projects allows me to get to know my clients better and helps me focus my attention to their specific needs. Having less clients, and more time to spend with each client individually also helps them get to know me and increases their trust in my design skills faster which moves the project along faster. I’ve learned that having a lot of clients with small projects requires more energy and I find myself spread to thin.

Go on artist dates. I read this book last year, and although I didn’t love it, I took away her “artist dates” concept. She suggests going on “dates” once a week by yourself to reflect and gain inspiration. I’d like to step away from the computer more – go to a museum, check out design showrooms leisurely, or go to a networking event – to go out and feel inspired. Working for myself, by myself gets lonely and I need to nourish my creativity. Sometimes you just need to step away from paperwork.

Go to market. I’ve never gone High Point Market (the biggest furniture market), and I hear mixed reviews from designer friends, but I’d like to experience it. This also ties in with the goal above – stepping away from the computer and reaching out to new vendors to get inspiration.
I’m really looking forward to 2017 and feel like it’s going to be a great year. :)

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