Happy New Year! In the past, I haven’t paid too much attention to a new year starting, but this year something feels different. I feel hopeful, positive and excited. The past three years have been challenging, to say to least – my father being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s (something I’ve kept private), becoming a mother, buying a house, renovating our house, and my father passing away less than two years after my sister passed away – all while my business was growing at rapid speed. I’ve had extreme highs and extreme lows during this time and it took me 2 years to understand, acknowledge and appreciate the lessons I’ve learned during this time. I’ve had an internal fight about sharing too much of my personal life on this blog… which is probably why you notice a huge gap between the most recent posts. Why am I hesitating to share that I’ve lost a family member? Will my clients think I’m weak? Will they think I’m incapable to handle their large projects? If I blog too much, will clients think I’m not spending enough time working on their projects?   Taking time off between the holidays helped me clear my head and reminded me it’s quite the opposite – my grief shifted my entire life and made me stronger. It made me think differently and has strengthened my business because I’m more focused than I ever was.  On top of that, I am entering the new year with a newly renovated home office, new organized file system, and an accountant to help me with my taxes and book keeping. These were all huge goals for 2016 and I feel so good to have accomplished this.

Last year I wrote out a list of yearly goals and put it up on a pinup board so I’d have to see it every day. This year I’m sharing it here so I can be held accountable. :)

Be mindful. Taking time off this past week made me realize how calm I am when I’m not on my phone and am living in the moment. I’m learning to meditate which has been really helpful, but also challenging for someone like me, who is constantly planning or thinking about what will happen next. I’ve been bringing my mind back to what’s happening in the moment: the way my cat feels snuggling me or the way their loud purr sounds, the way Cole’s small, soft hand reaches for mine to walk down the stairs, or listening to Ryan make Cole laugh. Little things add up to big things that change our lives, and I want to be mindful to experience them.

Have more family adventures.  We recently went to the Liberty Science Center and were there for 5 hours. Time flew by because we were having so much fun not having anywhere else to be. This past year, we spent a lot of our weekends doing home renovation projects. Looking back, we realize how much time it took from us focusing on family and exploring. Cole is almost three, so he’s becoming a typical little boy looking for adventure. I want to spend more time providing experiences, rather than holing up at home on a house project that really doesn’t matter in the long run.

Be more organized with meal planning. This is a typical new years resolution, but it goes hand in hand with us wanting to eat healthier. Our diets are pretty horrible right now, and Cole is THE pickiest toddler. I want to have a consistent schedule to go food shopping so I can prepare healthier meals to nourish my family.

Date nights. This one is pretty self explanitory. :) We need to focus more on our marriage because life has shifted so much since we’ve had Cole. We need to spend more time together and talk about things other than potty training or stresses of our jobs.

Care for my body. In addition to eating cleaner, I need to listen to my body and care for it. Seeing my dad’s health decline so quickly scared me and reminded me that I have control over my own health. I’m not saying that his Alzheimer’s was a result of his decisions, but I need to do what I can to take care of myself and pay attention to what I eat, what products I use, and what medicines I take.

Practice yoga. I’d love to be considered a yogi but right now I’m just an unsteady woman pretending I’m good, in hopes that I’m fooling everyone in the classes I take. :) I love my local studio and the community it provides and I intend to continue going more frequently for my body and mind.

Learn a new skill. Last year I took a pottery class and loved learning something new. This year I want to learn to knit, in addition to becoming a yogi. (See above. :)

Blog more. I’ve struggled a lot with what to post/share because I enjoy writing about personal things happening in my life. I know this business is my “brand”, but aren’t I my brand, too? I have a lot of ideas saved in my “drafts” folder but haven’t posted because I’ve been so busy with life and work. I also hesitate to write during a work day because I often feel guilty for writing instead of  doing my “normal” work. For example, today I had 564 emails when I woke up and now I still have 36. And I feel guilty because should I be answering those emails instead of blogging… Even though blogging is part of my work and my business, too. I want to rid my like of guilt, too. Add that to the list! :) I read this book recently and loved it and found it so relatable. So many creatives deal with similar struggles because our days aren’t normal, and each day is different, but yet somehow I still sometimes feel guilty for not always being behind a computer.

Less clients, but bigger projects. I love my clients, and am beyond grateful for them. I’ve found that having less clients and bigger projects allows me to get to know my clients better and helps me focus my attention to their specific needs. Having less clients, and more time to spend with each client individually also helps them get to know me and increases their trust in my design skills faster which moves the project along faster. I’ve learned that having a lot of clients with small projects requires more energy and I find myself spread to thin.

Go on artist dates. I read this book last year, and although I didn’t love it, I took away her “artist dates” concept. She suggests going on “dates” once a week by yourself to reflect and gain inspiration. I’d like to step away from the computer more – go to a museum, check out design showrooms leisurely, or go to a networking event – to go out and feel inspired. Working for myself, by myself gets lonely and I need to nourish my creativity. Sometimes you just need to step away from paperwork.

Go to market. I’ve never gone High Point Market (the biggest furniture market), and I hear mixed reviews from designer friends, but I’d like to experience it. This also ties in with the goal above – stepping away from the computer and reaching out to new vendors to get inspiration.
I’m really looking forward to 2017 and feel like it’s going to be a great year. :)

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Family Photos

Hi! In the past two years a lot has changed for me, and this year for my birthday all I wanted was to have family photos taken in our local park. We had pictures taken when I was pregnant, and when Cole was first born, but clearly he’s changed quite a bit since he’s been a newborn! We joke that Erin has become our life photographer because I originally met her when she was a second shooter at our wedding. We look like such babies in those pictures, but I digress…

In the past two years I learned a lot about my marriage, my role as a mother, and really, truly getting to know myself. I see my life through new eyes and with a lighter heart and I wanted these photos to capture my family: My husband who has taught me what true unconditional love and patience is, and my sweet little boy who can make my eyes tear from simply reaching to hold my hand, grabbing my face for a slobbery kiss, or saying “waterlemon” instead of “watermelon”.

Life can be strange, challenging, difficult, and beautiful, emotional and amazing. Through it all, I’m so ridiculously grateful to have these two by my side.


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My New Vegetable Garden

It’s hard to believe that we’ve been almost an entire year since we officially closed on the house. It feels like just yesterday and a lifetime ago all at the same time. We’ve experienced so much here already and living here just feels right. I’m embarrassed to say that just last week I painted and organized the linen closet. Pre-Cole I would have had that done in days, but everyone warned me how much a baby changes everything. When he goes to bed, I answer emails while I cook dinner (or honestly, wait for the take out to arrive), and then I’m exhausted. I have no interest in organizing or doing much of anything at night. I asked my doctor when I’ll stop feeling so tired, and her answer was “well… my youngest is 10…so….”. Yawn.

Anyway, this post isn’t about my linen closet but my amazing new garden! These crazy photos are almost exactly a year ago, right after we closed. The woman who lived here before us was in her late 70’s and raised her 3 kids here over the course of 40 years. The house needed (and still needs) a lot of love. Before we moved in we removed all of the existing overgrown shrubs, 1 gigantic tree in the front yard that was about 5′ from our house, and a tall gangly tree on the side of the house. Removing these trees not only made the house look younger, but it allowed a space for my vegetable garden. The back yard is almost all shaded, which is amazing during the summer months especially now that I have to worry about greasing down a toddler with sunscreen. When my oldest nephew first saw the house, he was so disappointed because he realized there was no sunny spots for the gardening I love so much. He has gotten me plants in the past, and loves to talk about what I’m growing and trying new recipes.


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Below are pictures of my new fenced in garden that Ryan built for me! He spent at least three muggy days working all day in the sun to finish this for me. One of the days was even his birthday, but as much as he complained about finishing it, you could see how proud he was to make this. :) I showed him this picture, fully expecting him to say I’m crazy because it’s completely custom but he just responded “sure, I can do it.”. I even threw in “I’ll completely build the boxes on my own so you don’t have to” hoping he wouldn’t take me up on it. (Thankfully he didn’t) To sart, we spent four dreadful hours in Home Depot picking up lumber, screen, pavers, and rocks. That trip alone was enough to exhaust me, and thankfully we had a babysitter so Cole didn’t have to see me struggle to push what felt like a 100 pound cart.

Digging the holes to put the posts is so difficult. I dug about a quarter of a hole for one of the posts and my arms were in so much pain, so Ryan took over and dug each post. Once the posts were in, Ryan cut the pieces of wood and I was just his assistant. I helped staple the screen to the fence, and once the fence was all put together I stained the fence with deck stain. For the actual garden boxes, I used a natural homemade stain of vinegar, steel wool, and coffee and I love the color! I wish we would have used the stain for the entire fence. (Side note: Ryan texted me to stop at Home Depot to get the finest steel wool they have. I thought he was joking meaning “get the fanciest steel wool money has to buy” but he literally meant the finest grit. We both had a good laugh about that. :) I’m hoping the fence will keep the deer out, and so far no bunnies have tried to crawl under since there are rocks blocking the way. I’ve had my eye on one bunny lingering in the yard, but he hasn’t gotten my produce yet!

In previous years, I went crazy and planted way too many plants. The bugs would get to the plants in the back because I planted them too close together and couldn’t reach the back plants, or we’d have too many tomatoes to eat and they’d end up going to waste. This year I only planted 3 cherry tomato plants, 1 pepper plant, 1 dwarf raspberry bush (my first time with fruit!), 2 basil, 4 parsley, 1 thyme, 1 rosemary (that’ll hopefully grow back next year) and 1 blueberry bush. Everyone says that blueberry bushes do better in 2’s so they can cross pollinate so I’m going to see how much fruit they produce as a single plant, and if we need to I can add another one next year. I’m so excited to try growing berries this year and I can’t wait to see them start to mature!

We also recently rearranged our outdoor furniture. Our garage is set up oddly behind our house, so the driveway goes right behind our house instead of a patio. When we save enough money or hit the lottery, we’re going to add a blustone patio where our furniture currently is so it acts as a patio, but someone can drive on it if they need to (for resale).

And now for less words and more photos…


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My beautiful peonies that didn’t last long enough for a photo shoot. I can’t wait until they grow in nice and full to create a huge hedge! I want to add some small shrubs in front but I haven’t decided what to add yet.


Ryan even added a soaker hose system so I don’t have to worry about watering the garden. Phew! We still have to cover it with dirt once we figure out how long the timer should leave it on for. We’re still figuring out the perfect length of time to leave it on.

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Thank you, Ryan! You sure know how to make a girl feel special. ;)

Things I’ve Learned This Year


You may have noticed that I haven’t had a blog post in quite some time. When I first started my blog in 2007, then named ‘pennyrounds’, I had just become unemployed and wrote often to stay inspired and to stay busy. Ryan would watch football religiously every Sunday and I would write and schedule the upcoming weeks posts on whatever inspired me. Looking back, those days feel so simple and sweet. We were still dating and just bought our first place together. It was a teeny studio condo near the train station so I could commute into the city and it was perfect for us at the time. Even though I may not have the free time like a used to (a blessing), I’m making it a goal of mine to produce more content for my blog. It’s important for me to stay connected with the few of you who read my blog (thank you!) and to stay connected with clients, both former and current. In addition to staying connected, I love looking back on old posts and seeing this as a journal. This past year has been the most extreme roller coaster and I learned an enormous amount about myself, my family and the people who I choose to share my life with.

This upcoming Saturday is my 31st birthday. Ever since I was a teenager, I wanted to be thirty years old. Thirty just seemed like the age where life started, and in many ways it did for me. Although, now that I’m turning 31, it doesn’t seem so shiny and monumental. This past year was the best and worst year of my life. I thought it would be helpful for me to share what I’ve learned in the past year…


Becoming a mother was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. Ryan and I were married for three years before I got pregnant, and it probably took me that long to convince him that there is never a “right” time to have a baby. I knew how badly I wanted to start a family but it took my over-analytical husband a bit longer to stop thinking so much. I think he was waiting for a moment where it became clear that it was the perfect time to get pregnant but everyone will tell you that time will never come. You will always be worried about if you have enough money saved, if you’ve traveled enough, if your home is big enough, or if your job is secure.. I was never, ever scared and knew that we would be amazing and loving parents.

I was fortunate to have an extremely easy pregnancy. I never once got sick and even when my body was psychically exhausted I savored it. I felt lucky to be able to get pregnant, to experience this wonderful miracle created out of so much love. I can’t explain how much I enjoyed every single day of being pregnant and feeling my little boy grow inside of me. Last year around this time I was nine months pregnant and waiting impatiently to meet Cole. It wasn’t because I didn’t want to be pregnant anymore, but I just wanted to meet the new love of my life.

My water broke in the middle of the night April 9, 2014,  the night before I was supposed to be induced. We went to the hospital at 3am, and I delivered Cole at 4:32pm and the entire delivery was so calm and smooth. Exactly the opposite of what I was expecting it to be. Even after I delivered Cole, I missed him being in my belly. Of course I’m happy to have a healthy baby boy, but I missed the little wriggles and squirms inside my belly.

I often catch Ryan staring at Cole and whispering to him how much he loves him. It’s funny thinking back at how scared he was to become a father and how natural it is for him. Motherhood is exactly what I pictured… the intense love that literally brings tears to my eyes, the sleepless nights, the dirty diapers, the good, the bad and the ugly. I savor all of it because I know in the blink of an eye, he’s going to be 13 and will probably embarrassed of his mother… and then he’ll be 18 going off to college. I cherish every single day with Cole and am so blessed to have such a kind, loving and funny little boy as my son.

Breastfeeding Cole was the most connected I’ve ever felt to someone. I wasn’t breastfed as a baby and wasn’t sure how comfortable I’d feel nursing my baby, but I knew I wanted to at least try. When Cole was born April 10, 2014, they immediately him placed on my belly for skin-to-skin and I was filled with so much incredible emotion. He sucked on his thumb for a little while (which he hasn’t done since) and then he began to nurse. That moment made it feel so incredibly real to me. That I was a mother, and my sole responsibility was to nurture this wrinkly little baby. :) I continued to breastfeed that hungry little boy for seven months and miss that wonderful connection. I miss the look he gave me while he fell asleep resting on my belly, the way he held my finger in the early months. Those intimate moments with him and memories I’ll cherish forever.

Having a baby brought relationships into my life that I wasn’t expecting. After having Cole, I joined the breastfeeding support group at Overlook Hospital because I was having trouble making enough milk to feed my 8 lb 15 oz little meatball. He was hungry constantly and I needed help, but I also needed a reason to get out of the house every week. Being a new mom at home alone with a baby makes you feel lonely. I looked forward to this group every Tuesday morning and went religiously hoping to make other “mom friends”. I never expected to meet an amazing support system of women who helped me nurse Cole longer than my original goal, and they’ve also become great friends.

Current friendships change and evolve as you grown older. This one was a hard one for me to learn. After I had Cole, I was feeling a unique loneliness… Originally I thought it was baby blues, but now looking back I’m realizing how relationships change as you become an adult. At the time, I was worried I was growing apart from some of my friends because I was the only one who had a baby. I am fortunate to have friends that I’ve known for decades, and I’m learning that our relationships are changing and evolving. We don’t have time to spend hours talking on the phone about boys like we did in high school, and we’d be awkward old ladies to be spending so much time in bars like we did in our twenties. We may not see each other every week, or chat often but that doesn’t mean that we’re growing apart. It just means that you need to make more of an effort to make plans and when you do spend time together it’ll be more special. There will be times in your life where you’ll feel closer than others, and that’s okay. All relationships change and evolve but we need to invest in them.

Buying an old home feels like a money pit.  :) Ryan and I always knew we wanted to buy an old home and I’m being impatient with the timing it’s taking to remodel it the way I’d like. This will likely be our forever home (with maybe potentially adding an addition in the future) so living in a neighborhood where we could plant our family roots was incredibly important to us. We’ve only been here since August and are loving it so far. We are so excited for warmer weather so we can start enjoying the yard with Cole as he learns to walk!

It’s okay to ask for help. Having a baby and running my own company is not easy and there were some growing pains in the beginning. I am fortunate to have so much help with Cole. He goes to daycare 3 times a week which he loves, and he spends two days with my parents. There is nothing sweeter than seeing your baby light up when he sees or hears your own mothers voice. I am thankful that he has the experience of both daycare to be social and one-on-one with my parents to get spoiled.

This year I need to ask for more help with my business. I know my strengths and my weaknesses. In order to have another successful year, I need to hire people to help me with those tasks that I don’t have the time to focus on so I can invest more time with clients.


Being creative all the time is exhausting. This wasn’t something new that I learned this year, but that’s how I’m feeling right now. I’m currently taking on less projects so I can really fully focus on my current projects. I need to work less on nights and weekends so I can spend more time with family. In order to be a better designer, I need to recharge my battery so I can be refreshed during the week. I love what I do and am so grateful that I have clients who inspire me, support me and respect me. This is a reminder that I need to ask for help so I can be the best designer I can be.

Life is precious.  This one is a tough one. Those who are close to me, and all of my current clients know that I tragically lost my sister this year. Her life was taken from her December 27, 2014. She was 37, leaving behind two small children, my 8 year old nephew and my 2.5 year old niece.

This part hurts me the most. That memories of my sister will eventually fade from my young nephew’s memory, and that my niece will likely never remember her mother. We will tell them stories to keep her spirit alive and these will become their memories that they remember of her. After sorting through my sisters belongings I came across something my sister filled out asking what she wanted to be when she grew up. She said she wanted to be a ballerina, a teacher and a mommy. She was an incredible mother and an inspiring teacher, although I’m sure she’d agree she was not a graceful ballerina. My niece and nephew were her greatest pride in life and I see so much of her in each of them. Spending time with them since she’s passed has been very therapeutic for me because I feel like I’m with her when I’m with them.

My sister and I are seven years apart because my mother had two miscarriages in between each of us. Growing up I often felt like an only child because she was so much older than me, but I desperately wanted to spend time with her and to be like her. It wasn’t until I turned 16 that she eventually started to like me and we became closer. Much like my friendships I mentioned earlier, my relationship with my sister evolved over the course of the past 15 years and we were closer some years than others. When I became pregnant with Cole, she was the first person I told after Ryan. I remember her jumping up and down and crying in her kitchen because she was so happy. Our relationship immediately deepened as we bonded over me becoming a mother. Our lives were starting to become more in sync now that I was also married and also a mother. After some years of feeling like we’d grown apart, I was so looking forward to our relationship getting closer again. I will never “get over” losing my sister, but I’m learning to live with the grief. People often ask if I have any other siblings, and responding “no” has been the hardest for me. I’m literally an only child now with just memories with my sister. I miss the relationship we were growing into, and I miss the childhood relationship we shared. No one will ever understand your childhood like your siblings, and it’s sad to think that I don’t have her by my side as my parents get older.


You have no idea how many lives you truly touch. My sister easily had 800 people had her wake. Most people waited in line for hours to come and show their respect for my sister and to support my family. There were so many people that my sister came in contact with throughout her life that she connected with. I mentioned earlier that my sister was a teacher. Several of her students came to show their respect with tears in their eyes. My sister and I look a lot alike, so the students instantly knew I was “Mrs. D’s” sister and came up to hug me. Each student told me a story about her and it seemed they all had the same impression. She was an inspiring teacher who made learning interesting and exciting because she was truly invested in their lives. There were several times where I looked around the packed funeral home and cried. Yes, I was sad because I lost my only sister. But, I was also so incredibly proud of her life. She had so many people who truly loved her and I don’t think she ever realized how many people would miss her when she died. I try and find comfort knowing that even though she died at a young age, she still experienced going to college, falling in love, getting married and becoming a mother.

This forced me to think about my life and how many people I come in contact on what seems like an average day. It’s forced me to be more present in each of my conversations, even if it’s just a brief conversation with your barista at the coffee shop. My sister got coffee every morning and even the woman who made my sister’s coffee had stories to share with me. Your daily encounters may seem insignificant until you’re not able to have them anymore.


Things happen out of your control and you can only be responsible for your own actions. My parents and I did an eight week seminar at a local church learning how to “heal a grieving heart”. I joke that all my new friends are 80 year old widows, but I love that. I like to think when I’m their age, I’ll have 30-year-olds interested in me and my life. In this group, we listed all of our regrets relating to our loved ones death. No one will ever truly know what happened the night my sister died and when brother-in-law took his own life. But I know that nothing I could have done could have changed the outcome.


Family. When something so terrible and tragic happened, I realized how small my family truly is. This tragedy has brought me, my mother and my father closer together and we’re learning how to communicate with each other better. This situation has put me in a different role and I feel like I’m now taking care of my parents. I can’t imagine the tremendous grief they must feel from losing a child. Often when my mother talks about my sister, she refers to giving birth to her and I immediately think of Cole. As a parent, you do the best to raise your children to grow, develop, and make the right decisions. But sometimes life makes decisions for you, and sadly they are out of your control. In the end, my parents and I have each other and I’ll be there for them forever. I also know that Ryan’s family is my family, through and through. I continually feel their love and support.


My husband is the most incredible man. I’ve always known this, but the past year has really shown me “for better and for worse”. The night Cole was born, and after all our guests left, Ryan quietly rocked Cole and cried happy tears. He told me how much he loved me and how happy he was. This moment is my favorite moment in my entire life. Seeing the man you love… the father of your child… rock your baby and show such raw emotion was so beautiful for me to see. I’ve only seen Ryan cry once when his father died when he was 19, (we’ve been through it all) so this moment made me even prouder that I chose Ryan to be my husband. Ryan has always been a full partner in life – whether it be helping me with work when I’m overwhelmed, cooking dinner if I need a hand, or cleaning the house. There has never been a “score card” where one person does one thing in the relationship, and the other person does another. We have always been a team. Ryan is an incredible father and I love seeing his relationship develop with Cole. As I assumed, Ryan is the goofy, silly dad that Cole goes to for tickling and giggles. And I’m the mama bear where Cole comes to for comfort.

When you say your vows, the “worse” seems so far away. I always assumed that meant when we were old and gray and not 4 years after you’re married. The night of 12/27, I got a phone call at 1am when my mom quickly and breathlessly told me that my sister and her husband were dead. They didn’t know any other information and that’s all the police told us. I kept saying “you’re kidding… please tell me you’re kidding.” Who kids about something like that? I was in shock, and I still am. Ryan could tell something was wrong by my face and when I told him, it looked like someone kicked him in the stomach.

Ryan knew my sister for 16 years so she was a huge part of his life, too. The weeks that followed that painful phone call, Ryan proved to be the strength and rock in our family. He made phone calls to insurance companies, helped make funeral arrangements when we felt too numb to make decisions, and completely and 100% supported any decision regarding the permanent placement of the children. Every night he tells me how much he loves me and how strong I am, even when some days I don’t feel it inside. Ryan is the most loving husband and I am so blessed to have him to share my life with.


I am surrounded by so much love. When you have a huge life changing event, you are reminded how many people really are on your side supporting you. The weeks after my sister’s death, my parents stayed with us and every day we had a full house of friends and family. There were days where we didn’t change out of our PJ’s and our friends didn’t care. They showed up with a bottle of wine, a box of tissues and just listened. I find extreme comfort knowing that Ryan’s sister, her husband and all our friends were here without judgement when times were really rough.
Beyond having an incredible support system, I have developed new relationships that are very special to me. Death bonds people in a different way, and I’ve become very close to people that were special to my sister. Having these new friends in my life helps me feel more connected to my sister.

You believe in the thoughts you tell yourself. I’ve always been a firm believer in this. If you live your life with a black cloud over your head, eventually you’re going to believe that you “have the worst luck”. If you live your life knowing that there are positive people and good in the world, you will see it in each of your days. Someone recently mentioned the book “The Secret” and The Law of Attraction to me and I need to do more research on that. I choose to see the good in people, and I know that not everyone will agree with my thoughts. I’ve learned to accept that.

Even when you’re dealing with your own grief, you can be a healer for others. Even though our family has suffered a great loss, by sharing my sister’s story I will be a healer to help others who have gone through a similar experience. I love my career and don’t think of it as a job, but I don’t necessarily feel like I’m changing the world. (Even if I had a shirt in college that said “Changing the world, one design at a time.) Sharing my sister’s story will help me feel like I’m really making a difference in someone’s life.

Pay it forward. Doing good for others makes you feel good. My family and I have received so much support the past few months that I don’t even know where to start to pay it forward. I belong to the Cranford Newcomers Club and they’ve organized a program to “adopt a room” to design a room to help a woman and her baby with leaving an abusive relationship. I received an email two weeks ago asking if they can design this room in my sisters honor. Reading their email brought tears to my eyes. I choose to see the good in the world, to share my sister’s story and to pay it forward.

If you’ve read all of my rambles, thank you. This has been a life changing, eye opening year. Life is precious and so are the people it in.
If you’re interested in helping my niece and nephew, please consider donating to their college fund I’ve set up.


When I was pregnant, people would always tell me how quickly time would go by once you have a baby. Maybe it was the hormones, or maybe I was a cynic, but those people seriously annoyed me. Now that I have a toothless, bald baby I now understand what they were talking about. Cole is now five months old and the time has flown by. Each week inspires new changes and milestones that are so much fun for Ryan and me to witness. I could talk about that boy for hours, but I won’t bore you. :) I mention this because you may have noticed that I took some time off from blogging. I didn’t do this intentionally but life kind of got in the way. We closed on our house in late-June and spent all of our spare time renovating our house and spending time with Cole. I didn’t want to miss out on his infancy by committing to too many other tasks.

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(Our moving announcement!) :)

We’ve been living in our new house for about a month and we are finally starting to feel settled. We still need to hang some art and the window treatments, but other than that it’s starting to feel like our new home. Life is starting to feel more normal and we’re finally starting to get into a schedule (until Cole decides to change things up). I’m excited to start spend more time blogging. I’m working on a lot of really fun and different projects that I’m excited to share with you soon! For now I’ll share with you what we’re personally working on now…

Plans for our landscaping.

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“During” pictures while the gigantic tree was being removed from the left side of the house. Oh, and my handsome husband. :)

We had the trees removed before we moved in because they were old, gigantic, too close to the house and causing the roof to grow moss. I literally cried when I first saw the house because it looked so naked. A little dramatic, I know. The front is growing on me now and it’s nice that you can actually see the house. (Check out the before here.) I’m excited to get plants in to complete the look!

Above is a photoshopped picture of what we’re looking to accomplish with the landscaping. We’ve already painted the door and railings black, added a new black mailbox and added new black shutters. We’re working with a landscape architect that I used to work with years ago and he’s helping us come up with a design that is colorful, textured and low maintenance. He seemed surprised by my two criteria: no holly bushes with poisonous berries and it needs to be hearty so it will survive digging and soccer balls. I know what little boys are capable of and it’s very possible that he’ll eventually eat the dirt or berries. I’m sure he’ll also eventually take tonka trucks to our garden. I’m one step ahead of him!

We finalized the design last night so now we have to start the prep work. Ah, the dreaded prep work.


My Two Babies

The past few months have been a whirlwind and went by so quickly! I can hardly believe that Cole will be 12 weeks old this Thursday. When I was pregnant I originally told clients that I’d only need 4-6 weeks for my maternity leave and the clients who had children laughed at me. I can now see why! It really does take three months to get into a groove and develop some sort of a schedule. We’re still working on that schedule part, but it has gotten so much easier! Cole is an awesome sleeper and only wakes up once, maybe twice, each night and when he does he goes right back to sleep. He’s even had a few nights where he slept eight straight hours! He’s been in his crib from the first night home from the hospital and I like to think that helps with his sleeping. Once we swaddle him and put on his sound machine, he usually goes right to sleep. He is amazing, that little boy.

He is developing such a fun personality now that he’s almost three months old. He has been smiling a ton and is just now starting to giggle and coo which melts my heart. When Ryan sings to him in a silly voice he kicks his legs like crazy and smiles a big toothless smile. Here’s a few of those adorable smiles. :)



I have some more big news! Ryan and I bought a house! :) I know, we’re crazy. Two of the most stressful things in your life and we did them both within 10 weeks of each other. It doesn’t feel real and we’re both on cloud nine.

We weren’t planning on moving for at least two years but Ryan was looking at real estate every day “just for fun”. That’s like going to target “just for fun”. You always end up with a cart full of random items that you probably didn’t need. But, that’s besides the point.

Ryan found a different house last February and we ended up placing an offer but it didn’t get accepted. Looking back, I am so relieved! Our realtor casually mentioned that she had another house coming on the market  on March 28 (my birthday), so I saw it as a sign. She described this house and my eyes glazed over: center hall colonial, fixer upper, north side of Cranford, 3 bedrooms, 1.5 baths, a wood burning fireplace and a finishable basement (for a future office). Ahhhh! It reminds me of the Father of the Bride house (my absolute dream house) but obviously on a much smaller scale. I knew this was “the one”.

We closed on the house last Monday and it couldn’t have gone any better. We met the previous owner who lived there for 40 years and raised her family there. She was emotional to say goodbye to the house but she was so happy that a young family was moving in. She was sassy and full of life and exactly who I was hoping she’d be. Her positive energy was infectious and it made me feel so good because I know the house is full of good energy too. I asked her what her favorite thing about living there was and her answer would have been my own. She said her kitchen was always filled with people and love. I promised that we would continue to love the house, cook delicious meals in that kitchen, and have parties to create new memories. After we signed our life away to the mortgage company, the previous owner and I hugged and we both cried. While I jokingly teased that it was from my nursing hormones, I know it’s just because I’m just so happy. SO happy. I am so excited for this next chapter in a house I am so proud to call my own.

Since the previous owner was a bit older, it does need a lot of work. This past weekend Cole spent time with his Grandmas while Ryan and I were able to paint almost every room. It’s amazing how productive you can be when you don’t have an infant attached to you! Before we move in we are going to refinish the wood floors, install wood flooring in one of the rooms that is currently carpeted, and install central air. Go big or go home, right? We’re also removing a few HUGE trees that are way too close to the house. See that big daddy below on the left? He’ll be gone soon so we don’t have to worry about him falling on the house.

house before

My line of work is dangerous for my own house because I have big plans. For the exterior I want to built an overhang over the porch so the house doesn’t look so flat. We’re going to paint the shutters black and eventually get a new front door. We’re going to replace the lighting, windows, add landscaping and remove that funky walkway to the street. We have another walkway that goes to the driveway which is what we would use anyway. Ryan photoshopped a picture here to get an idea. Swoon!


I’m sure I’ll be posting progress pictures once we have time and money (ha!) to do more work. I don’t want to rush anything because this could be our “forever home” and I also don’t want to miss out on Cole’s infancy. Spending time with him is way more important than stressing over which windows to buy or how quickly we can add molding to the dining room. :) Baby steps.